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Gord

2026-06-22 09:34 pm
Table between bonds, 
Prayer shawl across the arms,
I think you've nodded off...

So upstairs and criss-cross,
Stress balls, stretch marks,
Leading to ex marks.

I wish things weren't the way they are,
You and I could finish what we started,
But everything is decided by economics,
Including the birth of a daughter,
And the laughter that comes along with it.

Fables between health bars,
Self, like her chess clock,
Untouched between punches.

I wish things weren't the way they are,
You and I had finished what we started,
Two people who never fell apart,
Including the birth of a daughter,
And the laughter that comes along with it.

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Gord

2026-05-01 01:27 pm
Full and clear:
What should I have been?
I hear the rage of a starter pistol.

Good acting, Looksmaxxing, 
Should practice. Looking back
I just didn't have it in me.

Full and clear, 
What should I have done?
I fear the stage of starting interest.

Good learner, misunderstood, 
Bits of salmon under lemon curd,
A bit too sweet to handle her.

Full and clear, I could have been, 
And still could be, still could live,
But I hear you far surpassed me,
Too good for coming last place.

Rather, you practice trot and gate,
Failing that you simply walk away,
Down the hill, then left on blake.

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Gord

2026-04-02 04:48 pm
Dauntless spirit: fall to sickness,
Hard decisions,  job descriptions.
Starter pistols, starlight pitchers,
Starch, upon a talking picture.

Despite ego and wanting children,
When all accounted, long divisions,
Robert Browning, wrong religions,
Accomplished townie, unpolished fingers.

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The Sophist

2025-07-20 12:02 am
We're turning up the lights. We're not blacking out tonight. Cuz anything that's under half of one percent is a Sober Sip to me. We're going to party, we're not drinking lagers, we're not drinking ciders, we party to hard on those 5 percent beers and I can't remember anything. When the beer's too hard I black out and I can't remember anything.

I have come here to this song to start a revolution. At the corner store for $3 we can get something stronger. If we act quickly, tonight we can drink 7% guarana. Doors close at 11 but it's already ten and I want to get faded. Tonight is a Revolution. A night that we'll never forget.

Last night was fuckin' lit but I can't remember shit. Fuckin partied way too hard then blacked out from the doorway to the car. Last thing I think we did was have some Sober Sips. Fuckin partied way too hard then blacked out in  the doorway of the bar.

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Gord

2024-08-04 09:27 pm
Like the sun heats sand,
Marrow, lemon, butter.
Yellow begets yellow.

You can get by, off nomenclatures,
You can get off of your oral favours,
High horse and compare your god.

Yellow teeth, shallow gums, fallow claws,
Yellow is the sun that follows you home,
Yellow is Chicago, Toronto and New York.
Kill fellow flowers to see if he loves you,
A selfish color that swallows you whole.

Reach the threshold for silence, clap.
It takes not much for violence to start.
Although, you know that.

So, like the sun meets the sand, 
Grassland or temperant meadow.
Yellow begets yellow, 
Green, brown and red.

You can get by, off those things you said,
Oral favours or fine works of art you posess.

I see the yellow for what it is.

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Lynn

2022-04-14 10:27 pm
to stop what you are doing and beg
in a different way than before
for a chance to change;
to cause a beginning, a genesis

to start anew
in a parallel version of your life
where you have finally shaken off the slumber, opened your eyes
to start a new journey

but can it truly be a blank slate
if the dust from the eraser still chokes the air?

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Lynn

2022-01-25 11:14 am
the first time i heard
the word
was in the third grade 
as teacher taught us, piously, of the price He paid

as He felt the spike rip though
tearing his palms asunder, in two
He pleaded, Father, why me?
why must the sacrifice i be?

the first time i understood
the word 
was in the sixth grade 
as i started the decline into womanhood

as I lay, fetal, on the bathroom floor
and the blood soaked my legs and the pain a dull roar
I prayed, a desperate plea, Mother, why me?
why must a woman I be?

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Gord

2021-11-26 05:13 am
A horn right where the heart is,
A horn is where we started,
Beasts of a Godhead, snort,
What else would they know?

Seven heads, Seven hills, a woman sits,
Fearing what we couldn't fix is still amiss,
On top of the hill, one digests the hits,
The house my father built is sticks.

This calls for a mind with wisdom,
Or A horn right where the heart is.
For economics, For a little longer,
For when they finally got it,
The realization, it was violent.

Then floods, then nothing.

No foundation to stand on,
I must found myself, found my call,
But the houses my father built are gone.

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Lexi Holcomb

2021-05-24 03:51 am
It is far better to dry the ocean
and be at the bottom of the sandy sea
than it is to rage against the tides

hopeless, yet aimless, waiting for solace
you fight, you splash, you scream
only to be treading water for hours

while you could have gotten a towel
and then started drying the waters
taking a while. But as the level lowers,

and as you realize you're drowning either way,
it was far better to aim for the sand
that it would have been to rage against the tide

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Gord

2021-02-18 02:24 am
Smaller seaming,
Because he was younger,
and brimming, not breaming,
Avoided ringing doorbells,
Wrote love poems,
Fell for risks too far,
Bridge too tall an order,
Gambles on goon squads,
Heart, drawn and quartered,
Imagine waking to find that normal.

If life was dimming,
And one finds a switch,
Would you first turn it off
Or just turn up and live?
If I started singing,
Same time swinging my arms, 
Nobody listens,
Not even to turn me off.

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Innasense

2020-12-28 09:42 pm
Obsessions 

What power you hold over me...
Every action, every thought 
Is just a push in your direction 
Feeding into the obsessions, 
Lost connections, misdirections, 
Absolutely positively coerced into these affections 
By a brain constantly seeking tiny moments of perfection. 

Though you kind of must admire this curation of adoration, 
All the mental efforts required to keep up the constant cultivation 
Of this undisturbed fixation, 
The impropriety and distraction 
of a single-minded meditation, 
All these mind-numbing, pacing, 
clock-like rotations 
Theoretically leading this obsessive mind to pure elation, 
The uninhibited fruits 
of this persistent dedication. 
Happy sighs and exhalations...

But then...
The sobering realization 
That somehow life existed 
before this shrine’s erection
And perhaps the cracks start to show, 
Unexpected but apparent imperfections, 
Initially denied and resolutely rejected, 
The shattered shards of a crystal ball that disagrees with my projections, 
The deflation, depletion, extortion
Of my vexation, 
Maybe leading to complete and utter exoneration... 
The disintegration of my fascination. 
Maybe someday...

But for now I prefer to float in my comforting contemplations, 
Giving in to the infatuation, 
These happy delusions 
of my mind’s incarceration. 
And if the worst this should cause is 
These false exhilarations, 
Then I shall stay here for a while 
And enjoy the scintillating sensations 
Of my obsessive ruminations. 

A
Temporary
Salvation. 

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Blake Garner

2020-09-15 10:47 am
No secrets
You keep me speechless,
I can not lie
I hate that I love you,
If you knew the damage
Would you love me correctly,
The hell you put me through
I no longer want to be on the ride,
You knew I from the start
That I fall hard and fast,
I try to feel ok
While you play with my emotions, 
There's no need to explain
If you think what your doing is ok,
I can try to get up and feel ok again
But I'm just domino in your game,
Does this make you feel better
Being on top in this one sided love,
I wake up in terror
To ask myself what am I doing here,
Why do I let myself endure
The torture of your love,
I can not lie
I love you,
No more holding inside
This dirty little secret I keep,
I'm tired of the mistreatment 
I'm tired of the avoidance, 
You say I hurt you
From a drunken fight,
Its time to bring to light
Your drunken words,
When we met you knew
I was unwell,
One night amongst your drunken lips
You spoke to me a terrible fate,
It haunts me in my thoughts
The DJ to my demons party,
You spoke love sober
Yet you spoke death drunk,
Your tinder lips slipped
I wish you would've died,
You hated me for what I did
You hated the fact I was broken,
I set it aside for the sheer fact
That I love you truly,
However you still to this day
Blame my mental instability, 
I try so hard every day
I fight for my next breath.

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Blake Garner

2020-09-12 06:42 pm
You would not believe your eyes
If you seen all the dark thoughts,
I keep at tide inside my head
If only that was true,
I can no longer control
these racing thought,
I'm a danger to myself
I've succumb to pain,
I've felt numb for too long
I inflict pain to just feel something, 
Thoughts constantly racing
Never a chance to think straight,
I've found a healthy affliction 
In the pain I inflict upon myself,
I can feel it now
Like cardiac arrest,
The slip of the chair
The tension around my neck,
Ill try my best,
The pull of the blade
Against my wrist,
I've been trying my best
How much do I invest,
Before its all over
No longer numb,
My Demons
They catch me when I slip,
Motor control loss
Mindless acts,
Just a permanent solution 
To a temporary feeling,
Exactly how long is temporary
All i want is for this living nightmare to be over,
These demons consuming me alive
Fighting is no longer a solution,
Don't stop me now
I know now noone would shed a tear,
Noone would shutter a sound
To stop me,
Forget yesterday
I dont wanna see tomorrow,
Remember when you told me
That I was better off dead,
I knew it from the start
I was never any good to anyone,
You can believe it
When im not here tomorrow,
Today I find something great
Today I find a Healthy Affliction. 

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Dawn Toney

2019-05-15 08:55 am
Look at the trees,
All sweet with honey bees,
Kids falling skinning there knees,
Moms are running with all there might,
Screaming I told you ,don't leave
My sight,
Now were do we fly our kite,
Then they start to fight,
Bees are buzzing,
Oh so load,
 under over the huge
Big crowd.

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missa

2019-05-04 09:33 pm
-What am i supposed to do?
When the life i want is just within my grasp.
When the shadow of me won't let 
go of the past.
I can "almost" see them Lear...Taunting...Mocking me, as i start to feel F****** near....
See any clear....

"Fear..?....us...
Just follow us down this rabbit hole...
Right into your comfort zone.
We will show you how disposable you really are!
It's not that far.."

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Gord

2018-10-11 03:08 pm
She writes fallacies of nobody,
Highlights for her hair color,
Callously she laughs with glee,
Ire beauty and young bravery.
Screaming in doorways sobriety,
I like to think she knows me not.
Picking flowers from her yard,
Policy alike her start, mother,
Discovering what to be, rather,
Honesty like her heart, lover,
It beats nobody clever. Until.

Forgive my desires: two stepping.
Your teacup leaking, I laugh still.
Sieve steeping, a living actress,
And to live needing? is this banter?
Definition in short order, leaving.
For give my empires to Stephen,
An idea more Corey than Cancer.
A ballet dancer, but a thick boy,
Holes among left awood with joy,
Man ideal for lawyers and cantors,
For one who teaches is forgotten,
Cotton tarnished in an oily oil.
Royalty royal and parched to often,
His voice softens, off his head,
For I too seek enjoyment, spread.

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Hazey

2018-08-14 03:50 am
The thing that hurts the most.
You calmed my storms.
You helped make sense of the chaos.
You plucked me from brokenness.
Helped me find strength.

I don't know what it was.
But just looking in your eyes.
Filled my soul with peace.
I miss it.
I miss the quiet.
The calm.
I miss us.

I'm starting to feel broken again.
Empty inside.
Trying my best.
Not to let anyone see.

But there are days.
Where control escapes me.
Do you think of me?
As often as I think of you?
Do you remember my name?
What it once meant to you?

I look back on that day. March 10th.
Where I lost you.
Where every image I had of you.
Just shattered.
You were no longer a refuge.
You became a source of pain.
You still are to this day.

I blame myself for it.
For my losing you.
It's been three months. 
Realizing it's true.
I don't cry as much. Though my heart still does ache.
Try as I might; I can't bring myself to hate;
You. The situation. Us.

I want to throw it under the proverbial bus.
I can't. Because the sky still reminds me of you. It was our destiny. Our sky. The world was going to be ours. 
Accept it. It's over now. These dreams just won't come true. I need to accept that what we are. Is through.

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Tina Marie

2018-02-20 03:12 pm
As I looked into my mirror  one day, I could see, that a sad little girl was looking at me. I said to this child where is your smile? Through tears she replied, "Can we talk for a while? Your mommy is dead. They took your daddy away. I don't know how you face your mirror everyday?" Besides the lump in my throat, I also felt, a tear trickled down as my heart begin to melt. Sweet Child you see, it is hard to explain, how people can hurt you and cause you such pain. but if you believe that God sent us Jesus his son, you can face everyday and you won't have to run. So smile little girl there is a whole new world of love and happiness and a brand new start, the moment you ask Jesus to come into your heart. Looking deeper yet, into my mirror I could see, that this sad little girl looked exactly like me.
  

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