crybaby

2020-08-20 11:26 am

im literally dying,
dying, dying, dying
i just wanna give up 
crying, crying, crying.

it’s cold in my room
it looks like a tomb,
it’s cold in the house
all the people are out
hiding from each other
not like those ideal lovers
we’re cold without 
a warm hearted spouse.

you’re shouting those words
i wish ive never heard
everybody is hurt
and left in the dirt.

for who is it good
and why is it useful 
that we don talk
the way we used to?

im literally dying,
dying, dying, dying
i just wanna give up 
crying, crying, crying.

but i just cant,
cuz im in tears,
i have many fears
we wont talk for years.

i wanna speed up the time
to help healing the scares.
it’s such a fucking shame, 
tomorrow’s valentine’s day
we should be having fun
but i guess it’s over now
cuz we dont love the same
oh what a shame.

it’s shit being alone
so darken your clothes
and shut up your thoughts 
it’ll be better in months 
but who really knows?
who really knows?

crybaby

2020-08-20 11:24 am

8 years old
playing with dolls
marriage between thots
never touched the boys

then at school
cool swimming pools
putting on your clothes
causes me to drool

in 7th grade
joined the parade
thats the time i came
out of the shade

i regret
not sleeping at
that one night i said
what we cant forget

you pretend not knowing my face
you never call me by my name
i just need to know
what’s under the snow
what’s the name of the show
that you play

i wish i were straight
or you were be gay
if only you would lay
down with me babe
look me in the eyes
like i look in yours
kiss me on my mouth
and i would be yours

crybaby

2020-08-20 11:23 am

i met you on a friday night
it was all good and fun
i was stressed and fatigue
i knew im out of your league
but well i tried

i tried and i tried and i tried
having your attention
i lied and i lied and i lied
to earn your affection

when the party was over
you said let’s grab a toaster
and then you took me over
we got in to your rover

then days and weeks came and went
but granny had a heart attack
you said depression sucked 
and you only felt love 
when you were drunk

i tried and i tried and i tried
stopping you, making you stay
i lied and i lied and i lied
to look like im okay

you are an alcoholic 
no heart but many lovers
our love was narcotic
daydreaming like it’s summer

i wish we could go back
i wish you were sober
i think that it’s so bad
that i am so so sad
while here you are over
this shit

i wish i could go back
i wish i could know that
if you loved me in that moment
when your eyes weren’t open
and the time got frozen
real quick